was wondering. how would my life be if i chose a different path?. much different from now?. or is it up to destiny?. sumthing i dun really believe in. but i'm not so sure now. lost. many qns. unanswered questions. spaces waiting to be filled. looking. seeking finding. when will it end?. when did it begin?. who will i become? what will become of me. cant hold on to the past. cant stop the change. cant unmake the wrongs. falling...faltering...failing... will i pass the test? will i make the mark? will i falter before the end?. more qns.... please ...hope... lead me out of this place. dark. quiet lifeless. me.