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Friday, December 30, 2005

yep the clock's ticking. juz a few more days to the end of 2005. thats the end of another year. there's no returning. there's only forward to go. well to me this year ended too quickly. there are still so many things i wanna do with my frens. like the people of 4-10 . whom i juz got to know last year and bonded properly only this year. one year is too short man. look at 2703. we had four years. and we still find it too short. =/ it juz always...ends too soon.
hahas. a new year. and once again a new life. wonder what it'll be like in a jc. wonder what it'll be like in a mixed school. wonder what it'll be like having fun without many good frens. wonder what it'll be like to take 1 hour bus trips everyday. wonder what it is that i'll never be able to be again.
end of a year spells again the time for resolutions for the next. i of course have to make some too. though i'm not very sure i stick by them or live by them. it's...well i guess it makes me feel better to have something to work towards. lets list them shall we. lol
1- i wanna learn to control my anger ( same one as the past 2 years )
Fear->anger->hate thus ppl who hate are cowards...and i dun wanna be one do i? lol so i'd better not make that transition
2- i wanna learn to be more expressive.
hahas. something my parents always remind me about. coz i'm like a extremely passive person. they say the its the thought that counts. guess i stuck to that too closely. the sense is that if u don't express yourself, how do u make ppl know your thoughts? so no matter how thoughtful u are it still doesn't do any good if u don't express it. Again..as i've been reminded on countless occasions by my ma.
3-humility
hahas. surprised? guess not. i'm one heckofa egoist. thats what i personally feel. i think a chip off the old block would be rite. see. i'm learning already. to admit my shortcomings =D. again the past statement is a paradox. well that is for another post. to learn to accept criticism which i haven't been able to do much of shall now become one of my goals =D. yeah. learn to lose gallantly. learn to take things in my stride.
4 - learn to not be too impulsive
well this kinda links up with the Anger part. hahas. funny though. impulsiveness. =/ need to think things through before acting.

hahs. yeah well thats 4 for now. and maybe more for later when i start to think more.
well help me if you guys will spot my flaws and tell me. for surely the people around me will see them clearer then i do. as i'm human, and the inability to spot one's own flaws is built into me.
yeah and this is blue's the gift. well thanks to jaz for introducing this song. listen to it closely. learning from songs ...lol something i've never heard of. but something i've done.

And the gift is what you get by givin' more than you receive.
And you're learnin' fast that maybe this is how you'll be happy.
'Cause in takin' everything, you lost the air you need to breath.
But in givin' it away, you found the precious thing you seek.


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