my grandma passed away. and i dun feel anything at all. maybe its coz i wasn't close to her. maybe its coz i din know her well at all. maybe its coz i'm a rotten person. i don't know. i juz feel bad for not feeling anything. strange eh. my mother said she cried when she saw the body. it was found decomposing. now i feel bad again..coz i'm kinda referring to her like an object. hais. shan't say much more. i can't go for the tea party on saturday.