two7zero3

Monday, May 15, 2006

juz finished my not so nicely done chinese essay. yep it's the only subject in which i keep up with the work. ironic isn't it. the subject which i tended to least like. maybe coz i don't have no tutorials wihtin chinese lesson itself. it's either class work or homework(the sort that u hand in) so there's no checking of work and all that. and i'm forced to hand it up. yeaa. but come to think of it. if maths operated this way. there would still be absolutely no way that i would do my homework. i seriously hate maths...or should i say i simply can't make it in this subject. requires lots of effort that i rather(and currently am) using on some other stuffs in life...blahhh ..i say it as if i do special things all the time so i don't have to do my homework. like duh i so do not do those things. i'm just a plain lazy person who dosen't like to do work. looks like my prospects in life has just been diminished a whole lot. hahas. well
tomorrow is like the oral exams. and i'm totally not prepared. think i'll probably end up going uhhh. uhhhhhh...during the exam. well . what to do when you're unprepared? just try your best and Hope for the best. hahas. now i'm like worked up and all about the chinese oral exam and very soon it'll just be over. in a flash(though the 10 odd minutes during the test would definitely crawl) .it's just like the two terms that just flashed past. the lectures and all seemed reallllly long. i'm not joking there. but life as itself flew by. quite a paradox yeah. but i'm sure most will agree with me. time does the matrix. it looks slow mo. but its actually lightning fast.
recent weeks i've found myself losing the fervour( might i say) that i had at the start of my jc life. fatigue or something. or maybe i'm just plain sick of it(like robin -.-)...i no longer try hard to do anything anymore. i seem to have lost interest in almost everything. except for odac. maybe it's coz the physical activities are able to take my mind off everything else. i really enjoy our PTs. i can feel the bond that we've just started to forge present whenever we have PT. i guess our hardships and our sufferings will really become the things we remember most easily. but thats not all that i want to remember. i want to take away joy. laughter. fun and all from odac. memories are meant to be happy. or else they should be better off forgotten. to look on the bright side one really has to move on. but don't forget those who were with you. forget them you may. time may erode our memories. but remember the strength of love and friendship. for each and every friend you've made has turned around and made u in turn.
now now.
it's time to sleep i guess.
enough of typing typing more and more into this screen here.
it's been 3am 3.30am and 1 am n the past 3 days. (i was playing. unlike monster who mugged till 3)
guess 11's an improvement.
hope tomorrow brings more
actually i'll make tomorrow worth it.
do something meaningful.
like make some people smile.
genuine smiles. =)


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