two7zero3

Monday, May 08, 2006

sunday.
yepp. the terms coming to a close liao. i noe some ppl might find 3 weekS? or so quite a long time. but believe me. it'll be gone pretty fast.
that just means that the looming mid yrs are ever so snugly closer.
well wanna pass my mid years. yep . have decided that i shall make sure of that. passing that is(GP not included. i dun reckon its possible to pass gp)
but when i tried to do my maths(i actually tried practicing!) i realized that my notes were punctuated. lol punctuated as in there were missing parts here and there. forcing me to pause and pause.(the lts were very conducive for sleeping)
so i have to borrow notes from someone! yea. wonder who that unlucky person is. probably ppl like jason hoon(hopefully he's copied the notes) but theres his handwriting to take into account -.- . i pride myself on being able to read most of his words. but for a select handful i require the maker to decipher them for me -.-.
hmm.
tmrs chem SpA. wonderfully enticing. delightfully amazing. absolutely enthralling. bleeehhh. i want to get something like 7 ? 8. heard that 7 counted as a pretty low score. coz almost everyone gets 8(forgot who told me that ...)lol checkign through my chem pracs. my highest i got ever is a 7. i think. and my average score was 5.
lol hopefully i won't repeat myself. or the spas screwed.
today met my PW group for ....Pw of coz.
hahas. went to coffee bean at suntec. i was flying there coz like . EVERYONE was waiting for me. or more accurately the document i was holding .(wow i made the piece of paper sound so important). shanyan and huiting had waited like..erm almost 2 hours. sorry. reallllyyyy sorry. got held up at my family's lunch . yep we were celebrating mothers' day u noe. 1 week in advance! better early than late.
so eventually i arrived. and after 10 odd minutes of discussion. we parted. yes. how efficient can a group get man. seriously. =). we're that dam good.
tired. can't concentrate on the chem stuffs i'm trying to read. wonder how it'll turn out tmr. hope i wun do as badly as i did for the lecture test. (a big fat juicy U for UNGRADED)

there's the thing about the outing odac have too.
don't think i can make it for jts man . =/ unfortunately for me my paarents are leaving on holiday that day. in the late evening. yesh so i'm not allowed to go out for the entire day man(i mean what does that have to do anything for me going out)
which reminds me.
there supposedly a scheduled og outing on that day.
i think if i decided not to say anything to anyone. there wouldn't be an outing
well i can't go or it. it will still go on. i hope.
the prospects don't look too good though
i rmbr someone asked kx why his og was still together when his own had already fallen apart. well we aren't that together actually.
like my class too. someone told me we seemed very bonded.
see the emphasis on the word seem.
wonder what'll come out of odac.
coz someone already came up to me and said we seemed very bonded.
hopefully it dun follows the trend.
such selfish thoughts of mine.
maybe what i am is a facade too. maybe it was just a mirage.
for this i hate me. what a coward. i can look at myself and point out my weaknesses. but i'm too weak to do anything about them. guess i nvr was anything to begin with.
hm. what i've said i shldnt post. but what the hell.
they're my thoughts. on my life. if you're included in it. then so sorry.
hais.
that wasn't me.
hopefully.
i'll take sometime to sort these thoughts of mine out.
and go back to being myself.
sometime i just have to find some release.
ppl who cry easily are lucky.
really.


ticktick # 1:30 AM