two7zero3

Sunday, June 04, 2006

don't read this.
wanna go scream out loud.
so many things left unsaid.
the pressures building up
would everything have been different.
drifted apart coz of some ....
friendship's so fragile ?
or have i placed too much faith in it?
believing that it would have gone on without effort.
i guess i can't really have everything i want in life
life's like that.
it can be cruel. unforgiving. unfeeling.
but it takes a optimist to see the good things in it.
i won't say i'm a born optimist. but i chose to be one.
i'm definitely not optimistic in nature.
but i choose to see the bright side in things.
choice?
i wonder if i made the right one.
sometimes its really so difficult to see the positives.
i guess its only human.
spotting flaws are our forte.
but doing the reverse in spotting the good in people has never been something we excelled in.
sometimes it hurts so much u dun know where the light is.
hope? the faint glimmer at the end of the tunnel?
we thrive on it. we are motivated by it.
but what happens when one day we reach it?
will we find it to be as unique. as special as we expected it to be?
or will we just find it to be uninteresting and normal.
i guess it all depends on how we perceive it.
whether we want to see it as special...or as boring.
choices again.
there was this qn from a fren.
if there was this perfect world. where u could have whatever u wanted. live whatever way u wanted. but to access it...you'll have to lose all your memories of ur life.
would u choose to go?
i wouldn't.
therein lies yet another paradox. is perfect... just a utopia? or is it interpreted where it is a life which u want?
for in my life i choose to have flaws.
because perfection itself is flawed. without flaws. what would life be?
perfection is a perception
if it were to be smooth sailing throughout. what would u gain from living.
if it were to be easy throughout. where's the light at the end?
if all were to be perfect. who's to say what's perfection?
if it all were so easy. where would the hardships that bound us together be?
u see. i chose again.
i chose to see my life as....a little more then boring.
a little more then worthless.
a little more then useless.
i added those together and realized.
my life's only a little less then perfect.
it could be improved much more.
or i could suffer much more.
yet still..if there were a graph for measuring my life.
it would be a straight line.
it would still be a little less then perfect.
i told u not to read it.


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