two7zero3

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

hm blogging yet again. yup seems like i'm back frm the long break i took from this place. keep coming back in quick succession.
=)
now i wonder if thats a good thing or bad one.
well today was another failed attempt to watch a movie.
yup the prestige. i really wanna watch it. i dun really care. haha
maybe eventually i'll do a dennis saw or something.
ahhh
coz it sounds really good. lol.
anyways instead of watching the movie we had pastamania instead. mmmmhhmm.
hahas. beef bolognese. + lotsa lotsa cheese!
yay. full and all.
and i dun really know what else to blogabout anymore.
seems like i'm just blogging for the sake of blogging.
wonder when i'll find purpose . reflective of my life i guess.
bluurrr and just drifting around.
dunno what i wanna be. dunno what i wanna do. dun really know about life.
i think ppl who can think of what they want to be already are quite lucky.
at least life seems planned out infront of u.
u know where u wanna go. what u wanna do. u've made urself a map. u aren't lost.
well unfortunately i'm not one of these ppl.
maybe its down to pure laziness. maybe i'm just content in sitting in a spot in the maze. and not bothering about making a map so that i can find my way out.
out to where?
haha.
happy with confinement. conformist thoughts. contentment? is it a blessing or a curse. when ur contented u wun strive further or harder to improve. achieve. in a way u lose out in many important things in life. u lose out in experiencing life properly, without any drive u just rot.
but when u are nvr contented, u spend ur life improving and achieving nonstop. and in that way u also lose out in life, losing out in the little things that seem to always be there which u take advantage of.
haha. i guess the extremes are always advised against. hm.
somewhere in between would definitely be safe. yup. so i guess i shall head toward the middle.
contented sufficiently to be happy, but to also hunger for more, sufficiently, so that i would not lose the drive for life.
hm the biggest problem i see here?
well getting there should be it.
hahas.
i guess i need a map again.
and guess wad.
i feel lazy.


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