hm blogging yet again. yup seems like i'm back frm the long break i took from this place. keep coming back in quick succession. =) now i wonder if thats a good thing or bad one. well today was another failed attempt to watch a movie. yup the prestige. i really wanna watch it. i dun really care. haha maybe eventually i'll do a dennis saw or something. ahhh coz it sounds really good. lol. anyways instead of watching the movie we had pastamania instead. mmmmhhmm. hahas. beef bolognese. + lotsa lotsa cheese! yay. full and all. and i dun really know what else to blogabout anymore. seems like i'm just blogging for the sake of blogging. wonder when i'll find purpose . reflective of my life i guess. bluurrr and just drifting around. dunno what i wanna be. dunno what i wanna do. dun really know about life. i think ppl who can think of what they want to be already are quite lucky. at least life seems planned out infront of u. u know where u wanna go. what u wanna do. u've made urself a map. u aren't lost. well unfortunately i'm not one of these ppl. maybe its down to pure laziness. maybe i'm just content in sitting in a spot in the maze. and not bothering about making a map so that i can find my way out. out to where? haha. happy with confinement. conformist thoughts. contentment? is it a blessing or a curse. when ur contented u wun strive further or harder to improve. achieve. in a way u lose out in many important things in life. u lose out in experiencing life properly, without any drive u just rot. but when u are nvr contented, u spend ur life improving and achieving nonstop. and in that way u also lose out in life, losing out in the little things that seem to always be there which u take advantage of. haha. i guess the extremes are always advised against. hm. somewhere in between would definitely be safe. yup. so i guess i shall head toward the middle. contented sufficiently to be happy, but to also hunger for more, sufficiently, so that i would not lose the drive for life. hm the biggest problem i see here? well getting there should be it. hahas. i guess i need a map again. and guess wad. i feel lazy.