two7zero3

Friday, March 28, 2008

last day of 'work' was today.
i don't exactly refer to my job as work. well. mainly because it lasts just 3 hours every weekday. which is seriously pathetic. haha
army is coming in abit over 10 days time.
in january i was complaining that i wasn't in the army yet. that i wanted to be in there earlier. and then i told myself i would not feel the same if i were really going in. and unfortunately for me.
i was right.
haha. but i guess i'll just have to get on with it. slacking out here isn't too fun either. but you know its weird. when you thought you had lots of time you didn't have anything to do. but when you know you are running out of it. well. thats when you seem to find many many more things to do.
and then. you feel sian.
haha. cause you start to wonder why you didn't make use of your time fully.
you start to question yourself and your decisions.
blah. it isn't exactly fun. haha.
well. at least i can take solace in the fact that my next almost 2 years of life have already been more or less planned out for me.
that thinking about my future would not be required(that much. i'll panic when i do run out of time).
haha. speaking of my future.
i signed up for environmental engineering in both nus and ntu.
i wonder if i'll get in. haha. but i seriously doubt that i'll become anyone to have anything to do with what i've chosen to study.
so i wonder why i chose that.
haha. but decisions have to be made.
and so do mistakes.
its like pushing a button on a really strange machine full of knobs and flashing bulbs. you wouldn't know what would happen. you just take a step back an watch.
guess i'll be taking a step back then. and watch my life pan out from the decisions and mistakes i've made. hopefully the machine won't bite me.


ticktick # 11:58 PM