hey. its been yet another while. posts here have been few and far between. but thats the life of an army boy. life hasn't been much different. ocs is getting to be senseless. i keep finding myself asking why am i here. why. we do alot of stuff seemingly for the sake of just doing them. so much so that numbness is setting in. i live for the end of each day. thats all. the rest of the time is spent in acceptance of the fact that. well. i'm here and i have no choice. its just a year and a half to go. hang in there. you'll make it out. i know i will. but what will i come out as.