two7zero3

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

you know.
i was talking to chongzhi that day. and we were discussing how blogging has lost its allure.
well not totally. it just lost its staying power.
i'm still tempted to start typing.
but my fingers don't stay on the keys for long.
not for long.
because the mind wanders far away.
things that were to be typed are left wanting.
nothing is ever what it seems.
i'm here speeding across the keys because i feel as if i need an outlet
stress? no not really. but i guess its just people like me.
we bottle stuff up.
it has to go somewhere.
else like the coke can we'll explode with the smallest crack.
its 5.13am.
it ain't even 3 am.
that was a little while ago.
maybe i should have gone to sleep awhile ago.
i guess i should have. yet i didn't
and here i am. once again typing away.
it hit me hard how this place no longer holds anything for me.
nothing to fight for.
nothing to protect.
so i've got no reason to stay.
but i shall. like an empty shell. carrying on with routines.
routines.
till one day.
maybe. one day something will come along that is worth protecting.
that is worth giving my all for.
thats when i'll finally live again.
emotions will finally make me again.
for now i shall wait.
bide my time.
and bit by bit. fill this pages up.
till the day my life finds me.
or i find my life. whichever comes first.
for better not worse.


ticktick # 5:10 AM