you know something. i keep finding myself in the same situations. and the obvious finally said hi. haha. the obvious is the hardest to spot. common sense is not that common. well i realized. if it keeps happening to me. it has to be my fault. i must be the one who keeps putting myself in such situations. and like a friend said. you are who you are. you can't change it(not that quickly anyway). so i guess. i'll always be here. until the day it becomes too much. and maybe then i'll break. and change. and i'll never come back again.